Indian Ameri
Thursday
I'm fricking MAD about the way certain things have fine-tuned my character.
Life sucks - Knowing it and working against it, is Mature
Life sucks - Knowing it and fretting about it, is Immature
Life sucks - Can't notice it, is definitely Pathetic
Going from an immaturely pathetic mindset to a mature work method just to overcome the life-sucks-concept successfully sucks the spirit out of you......
Being on the receiving end was nothing. Wanting to deliver hampered by the experiences of being in the receiving end just isn't fair.
Self-hatred needs to be made mandatory....
Life sucks - Knowing it and working against it, is Mature
Life sucks - Knowing it and fretting about it, is Immature
Life sucks - Can't notice it, is definitely Pathetic
Going from an immaturely pathetic mindset to a mature work method just to overcome the life-sucks-concept successfully sucks the spirit out of you......
Being on the receiving end was nothing. Wanting to deliver hampered by the experiences of being in the receiving end just isn't fair.
Self-hatred needs to be made mandatory....
Monday
Matrix RESUSPENDED
Am not rich, but definitely am insane. One reason I might turn into a scientist (Scientology-Atheist mix). :D
Song for the early bird that gets the worm. :P
29th 3:30 pm: I took the Belbin test and my characters turned out to be primarily the Plant followed by the secondary Team Worker. "Plant" - resembles the absentminded professor inventor.
This week's like a magic 8 ball. Eurekaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!
Labels: Irony of life, Optimistic criticism, Songs, Usual Craziness
Friday
Challenge Accepted Buddy!!!
In the industrious PhD world of sighing knowledge, panting wisdom, and choking faith, a few challenging quirks are needed to provide the resuscitative breather. While, the intensity of such encounters deplete with experienced years of occupied life, the satisfaction of completing an opportunistic rare feat is cascading. Okay!! I guess, it's enough that I finish my introductory mumbo-jumbo punch philosophies.
Today, from an odd incident, one of my old under grads saw me discussing seriously with my advisor. My casual half hour lunch in the grad lounge was time enough for the under grads to approach me and remind me that I have grown too professional in the past few months. A consoling survival-of-the-fittest discussion bombarded inadvertently into an inelastic collision. $5 bet on the table from each, that I call my advisor 'buddy' in front of a representative under grad within the day and that he should not respond with a question mark in his face. A reliever from the routine in disguise is what the challenge seemed to me. Challenge accepted!!!
1:30 pm - Group meeting: I knew that my advisor with his lunch schedule today in particular, would be coming early to the conference room to open it up. I, along with the representative, arrived a couple of minutes before my advisor. As my advisor walked along the corridor towards us, I said, "Nobody is here Dr. H***."
Dr. H: Nobody????
I: (Using the opportunity to the maximum extent, sighed, and went.....) NOooooooo (paused, smiled short and........) Buddy(ieeeeeeee)!!! (This was strong, and lucid in pronunciation).
Dr. H: They should be here. Let's get in (and he punched the code in the conference room door).
I gave a successful smile back at the ug representative and continued into the conference room.
An hour and a half later, I was counting $30 from the under grads, whom I promised to join (and pay their entry) at Baker 360 for the night. So it's tub-thumping night I guess.
Off the challenges in life:
Today, from an odd incident, one of my old under grads saw me discussing seriously with my advisor. My casual half hour lunch in the grad lounge was time enough for the under grads to approach me and remind me that I have grown too professional in the past few months. A consoling survival-of-the-fittest discussion bombarded inadvertently into an inelastic collision. $5 bet on the table from each, that I call my advisor 'buddy' in front of a representative under grad within the day and that he should not respond with a question mark in his face. A reliever from the routine in disguise is what the challenge seemed to me. Challenge accepted!!!
1:30 pm - Group meeting: I knew that my advisor with his lunch schedule today in particular, would be coming early to the conference room to open it up. I, along with the representative, arrived a couple of minutes before my advisor. As my advisor walked along the corridor towards us, I said, "Nobody is here Dr. H***."
Dr. H: Nobody????
I: (Using the opportunity to the maximum extent, sighed, and went.....) NOooooooo (paused, smiled short and........) Buddy(ieeeeeeee)!!! (This was strong, and lucid in pronunciation).
Dr. H: They should be here. Let's get in (and he punched the code in the conference room door).
I gave a successful smile back at the ug representative and continued into the conference room.
An hour and a half later, I was counting $30 from the under grads, whom I promised to join (and pay their entry) at Baker 360 for the night. So it's tub-thumping night I guess.
Off the challenges in life:
- I saw my Day Rider (my Suzuki car) in Louisville this week. Pretty much happy that the new owner has kept the car clean and in a better condition. :)
- In two weeks, I was instructed to listen to so and so songs and movies by at least half a dozen people. Good to see that I am focused enough to be not concerned about new releases and tunes. double :)
- I saw this one liner "Only Robinson Crusoe can do things by Friday", and took a personal challenge to finish next weeks, early to-do list by today. Although I am only 80% finished with it, I am many % smiling about achieving it on a "Oh Yeah! Fridays are a better Finish" Friday!!! triple :)
- I had the 'save now' post from the early week as "The Truth of your point of view on relationships, you mention to your close friends is considered a Lie. The Lie you self mention on the current view point of your relationship with close friends is in fact the real Truth." Seriously, did I come up with this in sleep walk/talk??? :| Anybody agreeing/vehemently wanna oppose this statement, do clarify me on it's meaning first. :P
- Work engrossed, background looped, music of the day were "Intermittent fitful dance steps as you experiment", "Slow trance into the strings and off-work-concentration moves" and "Had to play umpteen times from the beginning to finish the song in one go, due to constant disturbances related agitated frenzy steps"
- This week, an old acquaintance Scott Murdoch, an interesting photographer, sent me this picture (below) and asked my comments. While, the most would have mixed feelings of the photograph, I and a close dudette guru of mine (as per Scott's words) were "Remarkably Keen-Eyed". Find the real truth behind the photograph by using simple reasoning skills. (If you can't figure out what the photographer has tricked you into, mail me so that I can inform the photographers imaginative and creative skill)
Labels: PhD, slumber along shadows, Songs, Usual Craziness
Song for the weakened heart
As part of my TA job, I am requested to assist Jim Polly, an 87 year old Donovon Scholar in his queries related to Nanotechnology. With sufficing interactions, I'd gladly accept that this 1953 Chemistry graduate is more interesting than what meets the eye. Yesterday, with the microarray field trip tending to make the class go warm in the seeping winter, I decided to accompany Jim to the HSRB building. As effervescent as a bubble, he walked faster than his heartbeat eyeing the younger crowd of the class fading among the Chem-Phys building. A cheerful chat kept him smiling all the way in his childish slide of a pace. Then all of a sudden, I realized that I was chatting to thin air on my right. Turned and saw Jim standing as a statue two feet behind me with his breath visible through his wide opened mouth. Fear crept into my spine and I had no other option but to run to him. Immediately he gripped my arm, dropped his notes and kept his other hand on his heart. Panic was evident in my mind. I felt the grip tightening in my arm and saw that his legs started to shiver and buckle.
A series of more physical signs proved that he was in serious heart pain. Panic, turned into calmness, and with all the CPR training taken as a mandatory protocol for UKCC and LTCA orgs revised involuntarily in my head. My eyes focused on the Chem-Phys corridor door and with no second thought I said, "Mr. Jim, hold on. I am going to carry you inside a building to get out of the cold." He nodded, and I carefully, let loose of his grip, lifted him and carried him to the nearby building with at most care. Within the next few minutes I had called my flu stricken roommate to get his car for taking Jim home since he insisted in denying any 911 help. About 5 minutes later, with two more unknown students around me expecting his pace maker to kick up, he recovered from his pain, took some deep breaths and said, "Let's continue to the microarray demo"
I was left......... well you know, unbelievably shocked at his attitude. A mixed bag of emotions, mostly swelling towards confusion sweated my face. For the next half hour of demo and the rest of the day, I was left intro-extro-don't-know-what-kinda-spective mindset. And that along with the irony life, is the biggest reason for making me avoid a concluding thought for this post.
Moving from the regularities of the daily heart attacks:
A series of more physical signs proved that he was in serious heart pain. Panic, turned into calmness, and with all the CPR training taken as a mandatory protocol for UKCC and LTCA orgs revised involuntarily in my head. My eyes focused on the Chem-Phys corridor door and with no second thought I said, "Mr. Jim, hold on. I am going to carry you inside a building to get out of the cold." He nodded, and I carefully, let loose of his grip, lifted him and carried him to the nearby building with at most care. Within the next few minutes I had called my flu stricken roommate to get his car for taking Jim home since he insisted in denying any 911 help. About 5 minutes later, with two more unknown students around me expecting his pace maker to kick up, he recovered from his pain, took some deep breaths and said, "Let's continue to the microarray demo"
I was left......... well you know, unbelievably shocked at his attitude. A mixed bag of emotions, mostly swelling towards confusion sweated my face. For the next half hour of demo and the rest of the day, I was left intro-extro-don't-know-what-kinda-spective mindset. And that along with the irony life, is the biggest reason for making me avoid a concluding thought for this post.
Moving from the regularities of the daily heart attacks:
- I've been holding on to a freebie human genome chip from the demo as my research horse shoe.
- I've been withholding so much usual day to day fun that I stopped showing my I-card to the BBSRB buildin scanner and instead jump to scan the wallet in my back pocket of my pant to open the door. There goes the days of scanning your eyes for entrance. Here comes the pretty simple - butt scan... :D
- In an unexplainable irony of chance, my QCM result has gained a free admit for a symposium in NY city. If I can somehow squeeze some academic travel money I can go there for some new ideas. The chance factor is what that entices my memory to stay long.
- This weekend most probably would be my last game of cricket in my life. I keep my fingers crossed that I'd go into a Univ that has a cricket club. Two weeks ago I was honored by MOCL's committee and senior most players from other teams for being a bright captain and player. Instead of me getting senti, I saw the team getting emotional.
- Had our first academic grandson born yesterday. Academic grandson is a funny term.
- And finally here is a song for you for whatever is meant to keep you happy.
Labels: Irony of life, slumber along shadows, So-So mood, Songs
Monday
Pause Mode!!!!!!
The stars' mirror, shines bright the same way a few thoughts that bring an infected smile of missed reality in him. Winter's up, and nothing's gonna get colder than the efforts to avoid searching for warmth.
Seems like the flu went into my crazy mind.......
Seems like the flu went into my crazy mind.......
Labels: Blurry eyes and lucid mistakes
Friday
The return of Chota Bheem from India
Age: 2 yrs and a few days.
Weight: 68 lbs (3 months back was 47 lbs - Is cholesterol the major content of my mum's/his grandmum's love?)
Name: No longer goes with "Jay". Responds to only "Babu Jayanth" (Thanks to G2 (gradnpa 2 - dad's elder bro)! Only he can induce such localization).
Favorite food: Anything that has chocolate in it (Asked for chocolate syrup over chocolate cake for the few minutes he spent time with me)
Hobby: Asking repetitive questions (Ex: Daddy, what are you doing? - like 10 times. Uncle Haarii, what is that?, etc)
Often used Punch dialogue: Chota Bheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeem will save you (and then goes pow pow pow on everyone except me... :D - Thanks to Pogo channel back in India - he knows mahabarath more than me.)
Biggest achievement in life so far: Voluntarily tonsured in Krishna's house (Tirupathi for him) and has been more than happy being that way.
Favorite music instrument: His dad's tonsured head. I hope that knocks some sense into his brain... :P
Image when he was in India with me
Labels: baldy logs, dad-grandson, India, nephew
Monday
Back to School
When your peripheral line of vision is enslaved by a huddle of coffee mug'ed, veteran-experienced, thickly four-eyed, and 90% of the opposite sex in a class room where 'rap-headed-version' of mugging biology is the key to understand the principles behind 'what I learn now governs my future', then all I can do is "Work harder than before". And this is just the definition of one of my five classes. While the adjustment with settling back into the study section of school has been tending at the speed of light, the havoc that's been kinked along with the addendum meetings, collaborative lab works, multiple projects and the TA job, has precariously kept me in the bee's line effort to reach goals (and most times home-works). Only a 'raining cats and dogs weekend leads to cancellation of the game' reason helped me to recuperate with 14 hrs of a 3-cycle added sleep and here I am sailing back into the bloggers bay.
Many a thing happened over a period of 30+ days that could have efficiently highlighted the color of the blog, if posted at those specific dates. But with the muscle spanning 6" between my ears failing to progress in the database management side, I guess I'll refrain from detailing 'em out and just stick to the highlights version.
Many a thing happened over a period of 30+ days that could have efficiently highlighted the color of the blog, if posted at those specific dates. But with the muscle spanning 6" between my ears failing to progress in the database management side, I guess I'll refrain from detailing 'em out and just stick to the highlights version.
- Climbed red-river gorge rocks with a bleeding wrist and realized that I love the activity not coz of pheromones or muscle building or even running away from life (as some oddly and technically put), but merely coz of the absolute simplicity of achieving peace as you climb. Nothing intrudes the mind or the heart when you hang for your life.
- Celebrated a promise of not buckling to a certain childhood picked and habituated temptation by having a sip of a 130 year old wine with a very old friend. PS - That was the only few ml of alcohol that went into the blood in the entire month and a half.
- Had a 30 second quick-gun encounter with an unknown child in the street. He killed me by throwing an invisible grenade as I crossed the street. The after-effects of the childish war cascaded to prove that I wasn't bad as I self-contemplated into.
- Enjoyed the brawl between the white and red conscience as I sms'ed, gamed, browsed, sudoku'ed with the under grads in the last bench while doing TA (It was bad of me being the TA, but I was also bored with the history of nanotechnology).
- Understood that certain things are left not to be understood.
- Yesterday dad spoke the first words after a month long angry hiatus and all he spoke was how much he missed his grandson in a span of 3 hrs (J should be landing anytime soon). While it hurt like hell initially as he spoke only about his grandson, at the end I was content about the fact that he spoke to me finally. Guess, at times one has to break the friendship link with a parent and be a silent son. Things might not be the same again. Only time can prove it wrong.
- Missed the drama in the airport, as J wailed out of security back into his grand's arms. The only thing that is holding the little guy from missing his grands is the fact that he is going to meet his uncle and have some fun. Balancing thinly on the wire between 'complete isolation' and 'complete care'. Mom's sobbing on missing the little champ, but wants me to be on her side as consolation. (For the umpteenth time I miss being a kid..... :( )
- In two days my memorable mind has every right to celebrate a three year period of fun and longevity, although both are on hold now. Had some failed attempts on photography for this cause, but learned a new trick that could modify the way I look into pictures as a whole. Excited, but schedule looks gay'ly tight fit.
- Acted smart and simply Desi enough to go $0 fined on the license suspension issue.
- Did my first night out in ages and ended up dozing on the Engineering quadrangle under the hot sun. Woke up to see free pizza being given to anyone who is around the area and had my tummy filled.
- Getting content with every moment and decision of being in the savings mode.
- I am missing a lot of things here, coz my brain jerked back into busy mode three bullets before. I have no other option but to quit from continuing further...... Adios, Au revoir, Ciao..... Hope to pen something good in the forthcoming days.....
