Indian Ameri
Friday
The white dot in space
Too bad I've succumbed to one such complication.
Anyways, I just scanned and copied about a hundred photos from my hard disk for a friends wedding and it brought a deluge of memories. And I just wonder if an involuntary wall has built itself making me invisible to my old self..... Maybe I need to start filling my work calendar with words including "call xyz at 1-1:30", "read a funny article at 2-2:30", "plan to do an impromptu plan for the long weekend" etc....
And if you're intrigued about the title, I'm implicating that the tiniest white dot in space is in fact a huge very well lit star. Memories from the past have an analogous meaning....
Tuesday
The Grudge
Either way, I feel like a north pole being pulled to the south (North being good, south being the exact opposite, but in a more "wrath" kind of way)
PS - I'm still cryptic when it comes to expressing myself. Hmmmm.....
Wednesday
Sleep the answer
This nostalgia has altered the phrase "Life is defined by the choices one makes" to "Life is not only defined by the choices one makes, but also by the choices that were never understood to be considered as real choices"
And the only remedy I've used is 'sleep now and the morning would be bright enough to shadow the depression.' It has been working its magic.
But deep inside I've got the ever so lingering question, "Is sleep the only answer?"
Labels: slumber along shadows
Saturday
And then there is the truth....
Labels: slumber along shadows
A bit of narcissism
And.....
I believe for truth that I am queerer than most can ever imagine and it is keeping me elated. I do need this confidence for what seems to be the dessert for thought of defining the future.
Wish me luck for continuing this phase of confident approach.....
Labels: Narcissism
Wednesday
The Delicate Balance
When a person close to me, in particular those who know every trait and bit of me, asks a 'casual' question in an attempt to shift the balance in favor of their 'presumed/assumed' efforts to change my commitment level in anything pisses me off the most.
And the above post is not a rant or an angry gesture. It's just something I discovered this week coz I handled the situation with at most calmness and a simple answer. :)
Labels: Contemplation, Opening Up, Optimistic criticism, slumber along shadows
Monday
Sigh but yahooooooo
Yahoooo - The above is because the result is so 'complicated' that even the two experienced proffs, one associate proff, and my external will not understand the depth of its 'simplicity'. This means, my analytical skills of reasoning and generating ideas to prove my theories with complicated results is one step over my academic parent mentors.
Just another feeling that I've really accomplished in my PhD.
:)
Labels: Optimistic criticism, PhD